Thursday, February 9, 2006 - 4 days, 9 hours and 34 minutes Smober
Crappit, I just realised I completely forgot about this blog!. I?m so sorry! Geeesus. Ok ok ok , lets get back on track shall we?
Employment wise ? well?.. I lasted ONE day at my new job!! Yeh, well I was depressed at the thought of working somewhere else as it was, and spent my first day holding back tears. The guys were sleazy and the girls were just total cows. It just wasn?t my kinda place. The job was a hell of a way to travel every day - and hour and a half each way. The job was account manager, but basically it was more like a call centre, and it was more trying to upsell and cross sell products to existing clients. Boring. Totally boring.
So here I am?. Back at my old work.
My chrissy was really good actually. Had mum, sisy, nanna, pa, dean and BF's youngest over the weekend before for lunch, which went really well, and then on Christmas day BF and I headed over to mum and dads for a lazy day of food and boci in the frontyard J New years was at Pyramid Rock festival ? 3 days of camping, music, and a lot of drinking. Good fun J
It?s strange? because we work at BF's? by the time we get to the end of the day, we?re stuffed and just end up cooking dinner here, and watching tv here (cause he has a big ass plasma screen J) and then I never end up going home! So I think the last time I actually STAYED the nite at mine was about 3 weeks ago?
I hate my place. Its lonely, and it doesn?t feel like home anymore. Yet When I?m at BF's I feel frustrated that we don?t technically live together, and I start missing all my things.
Anyhoos?. My lease finishes on the 21st April, so I daresay I?ll just shift all my shit in with BF.
He?s yet to tell the ex that I?m moving in though.
Infact hes yet to really talk to her about the fact we?re still ?seeing? each other.
I really have no idea how shes going to handle this. Not well I'm guessing.
*frowns*
Ugh sorry, im in a really edgy mood. I gave up smoking.
Yeh you heard right.
For the first time in my whole smoking life, I have actually given up! I had just had enough of it. I wanted my energy back, my health, and my money! It seriously is the stupidest thing? so I decided after my big night on sat nite, that was it. ( I don?t like smoking when I?m hung over, so that helped) So haven?t had a smoke since sat night.
I?ve been running every morning to avoid the evilness of the morning coffee+cigi craving. Then I come back and have a bowl of fruit salad, then stay on green tea, and lollipops and chewy all day(between meals). This is hard to explain, but its been harder than I thought sometimes, and easier than I thought other times.
BF's trying to quit too, but he?s doing a miserable job at it. He is still having one or two a day, and even with those smokes he;s getting agro after a few hours apart. Part of me thinks he should just keep smoking. LOL.
In the arvo?s I?m going for long walks with my friend (she lives just around the corner, and shes given up too? so we?re supporting each other through this!)
I must say ?. Regardless of the hideous cravings, ?. I feel SO SO much better for it. And I know it?s the best thing for me to ever do for myself. I am already feeling so much healthier J
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